Tuesday, September 22, 2009

Dear Blog.... I am so ashamed of myself.....

Yes, it is true..... Many months have passed>>>> and yet I still am here.... waiting to tell you ALL my depths of emotion, my disappointment with what I thought would be different,,,,, my desire to tell you a tall tale -- a tale about how I was really a princess and I found my prince, ,,,, and we had sex,,,,, and we rode away on a steed...... or just that we had sex...... or that we just rode away on a steed.....



but you know better....

I knew better.....

I knew I wouldn't be telling you any of those things....


All I have to tell you, is that my desire to end this and end every emotion I have ever felt, is at its all time high....

Did I mention how he stays up all night if I go to bed early ....

How he falls asleep at dusk if I mention that I will be up "for a while".....

Fuck me for putting up with these games.....

Fuck me for giving a fuck about him .........................


Goddamn it, girl,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

has this life meant nothing?????????????//


has it taught you nothing????????????????????/


FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

1 comment:

Anna said...

It's been awhile since I've commented here; it's been awhile since you've posted. I really hope there are happy moments in your life. I hope the content of this blog is only the face, but not the heart of your world.